feeling blessed suiten

i was a freakshow when i sat upon the walls of a tall building

i was one of the sadboys you have grown to protect

i was lil xan 

i was yung lean

i was every ecco2k song 

only because

i wasn't yours

i looked at the glitter

sparkling in her eyes

but turned to her breasts to

get back to reality 

oh! her adidas pants

her smirking smile

poking through me

like an eyebrow piercing

making all my muscles

melt off my bones

i spoke to myself the other day

asked me: what are you thinking of?

i answered myself: you

i was touched by my own considerance 

my unconditional love

the blessing of my soul since i started to like my body

it accepts me 

im thinking looking at my pecs and the sixpack i slide my fingers across

while throwing half a plate out 

or up because sometimes

i dont throw it out 

i just throw it up

yes

i take my selfies

in the mirror

i dreamt the girl i have sex with

cut of all her hair 

i dreamt she was as beautiful as ever

i woke up wanting to be reborn too

my name to be francois

i was 16

she sticked and poked me

so i would forever 

be hers

she served the pain

on silver plates

we shared it

middleeastern style

licking our fingers

living her life

feeling dead alive

like a 9-5

i will never be richer than blood

but i kinda like it 

that way

im like a stripper

i have grinded 

all year

dancing in

the moneyrain

waiting for

the endless summer

im no one

im smoking

a cigaret now im

smoker

im writing a poem

so im poet

my skin is white

therefore im rich

would you like to

draw me now?

its cold out here

the only feeling i know

is freezing